....

the disney classic, i'm quite fanatic about, remember every song, remember every line....
"it is you..."

Holiday in Handcuffs

put this on my list of favourite movies.... love the story, love the smart arguing, love the actor....

"Doing one crazy thing does not make a person crazy...."

"There may not be such a thing as a perfect job, a perfect life or a perfect family,
but there is such a thing as a perfect moment..."
(Trudie, 2007-Holiday in Handcuffs)

Coffee Shop

"Why Blend In When You Can Stand Out"

a cup of tea....

Rejection doesn't hurt, expectation does.
Lie doesn't kill, denial does.
Forget doesn't heal, forgive does...

Trust in God's will...

...make peace with the past

not giving myself in.. just trying to understand,

i'm learning you...

: ...waiting for my shining armour....

“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down.”

Sparks

Inside or outside counts most? I believe in physical attraction though, like they said
" its the inside that counts, but the outside gives the inside a chance.."

Do we really need the things they called sparks, connection
or what they called a chemistry??

Or (some said) actually we only need respect, , good conversation and same vision in life,
or my naive version ...just took a glimpse and you're sure that
he's the one that you will lay your future at....
it needs no sign at all, just trust your heart..

there will be perfect time for perfect person, pray hard...
oh...and there's no need to rush :)

(Lagoi, August 2010)

Architect, Are You ??

Vega Capella Hadar Rigel Barnard's Star Antares Aldebaran Altair Wolf359 Betelgeuse, Sun...

"A book is made from a tree. It is an assemblage of flat, flexible parts (still called "leaves") imprinted with dark pigmented squiggles. One glance at it and you hear the voice of another person, perhaps someone dead for thousands of years.

Across the millennia, the author is speaking, clearly ...and silently, inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people, citizens of distant epochs, who never knew one another.

Books break the shackles of time, proof that humans can work magic." (Carl Sagan)

.....

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak;
sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go

Trusting that He will make all things right...

God, Grant me the serenity;
To accept the things I cannot change;
The courage, to change the things I can;
And the wisdom, to know the difference.



Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;

(R.Niebuhr)

Getting Over

They said....if you can't get someone out of your head,
then maybe they're supposed to be there..

But you will never find the right person if you don’t let go of the wrong one.

Just hope all is going according to God's plan.
Trust that there is a bigger picture.
that life is unfolding as it should.

Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve
to be an issue in our life

(Inspired after noting in some Fb statuses, lot of woman cannot get rid of the past...it's so sad realizing all woman facing the same problem... be tough, better not wasting your time in wrong person)

"Do things for the right reason in your life. If you are with someone because you don't want to be alone.

MOVE ON!! Love is in a high cycle..."

Glass of Lemonade

..the greatest mistake you can make in life
is to be continually fearing you will make one

Status : Playlist

played it hundred times....

-Imsomnia - Craig David
-Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus
-Take A Bow - Rihanna
-Percayalah - Ecoutez
-Cinta Tanpa Mata - BIP

Be near me, Lord Jesus. Close by me forever...

Away in a manger, no crib for His bed

The little Lord Jesus laid down His sweet head

The stars in the bright sky..looked down where He lay

I love Thee, Lord Jesus. Look down from the sky

And stay by my side, 'til morning is nigh.

Be near me, Lord Jesus, I ask Thee to stay

Close by me forever and love me I pray

= MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERY ONE ! =

Status : Listening to Kelly Clarkson

Do you remember me, I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown up now and still need help somehow
I'm not a child but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish, my grown up christmas list
Not for myself..but for a world in need

No more lives torn apart. That wars would never start
and wars would never start...and time would heal all hearts.
And everyone would have a friend, and right would always win.
And love would never end.

This is my grown up christmas list.

Status : ...

Need someone that I can be sure, will catch me if I should fall.
Someone who'll be there when I call.

To warm me each night.
Making the future bright.
Somebody who will make it all right.

want the real thing or nothing at all.



(B. Caldwell)

Status : Just finished watching Avenging Angelo at Tv3.....

Got romantic feeling, the soundtracks are great....Must visit italy one day

Status : Clear Mind

God does His way in mysterious way.....
can feel it, that He works on me...

All my wonder, all the confusion, all the questions are being answered today.
through some events..through friends.... through a call
perhaps the answer made you kneel down and cried...for now.... but better than have to cry over something for the rest of your life...


And ... it's ... just ... OK.

He wants me to let it go one more time, and I will...

Status : Listening to Jon Mclaughlin, So Close

just finished watching the last dvd.... this week's list are , Confessions of a Sociopathic Social Climber, Yes Man, Re-watched 'He's not that in to You', 'Sex in the City', 'Over her Dead Body' and 'The Story of Us'..... cried like a baby.... kudos !! all movies are great and inspiring....

Status : Feeling Blessed

He never said it would be easy...
He only said we'd never go alone.

Status : Listening to The Fray

If I don't say this now, I will surely break

As I'm leaving... the one I want to take

Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait

My heart has started to separate

It's always have and never hold

You've begun to feel like home

What's mine is yours to leave or take

What's mine is yours to make your own

So few come and don't go...

Will you want to be the one I always know

When I'm losing my control, the city spins around

You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Be my baby.....and I look after you

Status : Listening to Matt White

And love, such a silly game we play
And I can feel it in your kiss. It just gives me tender bliss
What is love?

When I feel you around....
When I hit the ground, when I see you laugh away
It hurts but I just won't say



Love, who can tell me I am wrong? I just think that I am strong
What is love? I just want you to be loved.....

When I feel you around I was so upset
We fell on the ground...
When I see you're mad at me, it was such a silly thing

And I can feel it in a kiss, it is something I will miss
What is love? I just want you to be loved

Once I met you I let go

You came my way one night
Just one look and i knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear

There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what i got
you got it all over him

Once I met you I let go

Status : Back to the track.... again

God's preparing until i'm ready
now i understand
(irr)

Katanya temen.....

Your time is limited.
So don’t waste it living someone else’s life......

Katanya Tetangga......

"If you want to be happy, set a goal that
commands your thoughts, liberates your
energy, and inspires your hopes."
- Andrew Carnegie

pplsayilooklike

Quote of the Day

"People use telephones and internet because
they hate being close together and
they are scared of being alone"



...... im not in... are you?...

Everything about "I"

A friend asked me to do this on fb notes then tag another 15 friends. Im not into any chain mail... so here it goes.....

Rules: Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. . .nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: irma
2. A four letter word: err.... irit?? iman??
3. A boy's name: ian
4. A girl's name: imara
5. An occupation: institute teacher
6. A color: indigo (between blue and violet)



7. Something you wear: indian skirt
8. A food: instant noodle ..... love this
9. Something found in the bathroom: identity card, iron towel rack
10. A place: indonesia
11. A reason for being late: in a blue
12. Something you shout: i got it!!
13. A movie title: i am legend
14. Something you drink: ice tea
15. Musical Group: incubus...


ir : "susahhhhh........."

get inspired.....

"Success doesn't come to you,
you go to it."

the world was a song

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving



Irr : "Susan Boyle may lost the competition, but the spirit stays forever"

impact of melancholy

(click to read it)

irr : ... my sister, Mantha linked my page on her face book, she said :

" ... to everyone of you who has met or knows my dad. Please welcome to read this tribute written by my lovely sister. Being apart from my family for almost 14 years has changed me alot as a person in good n bad way. But this tribute reminds me how wonderful my dad is ..his love n care...miss u so much..I'm sorry that we had some misunderstandings from your last visit. It was just me the stubborn one, but I'm still your little girl who needs your shoulder to cry on when the world came against me...."

irr : Got lot of hits on ''tribute of my dad''.... did not realize the responds (most are from my sisters) are that much.... ... mellow me... but daddies are rocks !! tribute to all fathers in the world.... A week to go to Fathers Day....

Anywhere But Here...

I wish for a place
where the earth doesn't shake
If the earth won't be still, then I will
and my friends can be my family,
and they can be my company
then I'll take them to a party and we'll have fun



can you tell me if I'm near to anywhere but here?

I wish for a place where it's not such a waste
I can tell the girls my name,
it's okay although it's plain

If I could sleep
then I would dream of what you promised me
and everything would seem better than it is.
I wish for a place where I could go
'cause everything here moves so slow.

Can you tell me if I'm near to anywhere but here?

I wish for a place where the earth doesn't shake.
If the earth won't be still,
then you and I will.

Can you tell me if I'm near to anywhere but here?

tribute to my dad....

My dad is a fashion critique
He doesn't like me wearing any tight, girly stuff. He thinks an architect should wear a tartan flanel long sleeve shirt and baggy trousers with lot of pockets. The only thing he agreed with me is my converse shoes.

My dad and his car
He follows music trends and listens to Jason Mraz and Maroon Five. Jump in his car, always find some new hip cds... "Can i make a copy of this daadddd....."

My dad and Kungfu Series
For as long as i remembered, he always watched kungfu series... My niece got called "Princess Cheung Ping" by him

My dad is a musician...
He played guitar quite well. He impressed my mom before they got married, by singing in an american community band.... It was Speedy Gonzales, which afterward he sings it to his children couple timess.......I can easily picture him sing the " laa... lala lala lalalala......". He has terrific voice, Randy Jackson might told " Wow... man, you truly can sing... yow yow yow..." . I love doing karaoke with him.... Our favourite duet is Thousand Miles.... I still got the record, papss

My dad is cool
My 68 dad still wears adidas shoes and jeans to the office. He's into fashion alot... Could spend hours finding the pants, ties and shirt he wanted... His favorite, beige short pants and Hanes tshirt

My dad always smells good....
never go out without his favourite parfume. Even when he went to wet market... You can smell him like in 20 meter radius.

My dad is a great chef
He's an expert in making superduperdelicious spaghetti, well-known among his daughter's friends... His Ikan teri Fried Rice also makes me miss to come back home... Often find him making us Fish Ball Noodle in the morning..... "Paa... mau sarden pake tomat yang banyakk"

My dad is a big narcist
Just right on the garage, you'll find different pose of him hanging on the wall. He wore sunglasses, he without sun glasses, he's smiling... he is not.... he wore hat, he lifted the hat, T_T puh leez, now i know where i get the things from...

My dad rarely uses public transport..
Two years ago he insisted to go to Pasar Senen to buy me Char Siu using Metromini. We were worried like crazy..... He stated in mind.... that "When you go down from the bus must start with ur right leg, and when you up using your left leg..... ". That was the theory !!! When he came home, he said that (well okay) he got confused and ended using both legs,,,, that was really funny imagining him jumped out from the bus.

My dad and his six daughters.....
When we were little, twice a year he took us on vacation.... all six of us. When we grow older, we still are his babies. Never in a second he doesn't think about us.... always keep in touch, always sending mail, always phone you at the right moment when you feel down. Being surrounded by girls, makes him a very sensitive dad... (yeah pap, i think u're not born with it) , he easily cries...

My dad is Opung Kumis
He got 7 grandchildren. He and my mom often show up infront of my sister house without warning. Playing with the boys, making fun of the girls, all the grandies love love him.

My dad loves going out
Take him out for dinner and you never feel sorry to see how big his smile enjoying a big bowl of Vietnamese Noodle. We often watch film together, buy big pack of popcorn with extra butter and cups of pepsi, purrfecto.

My dad loves my mom....
He always comes home for lunch and adores all my mom's cook. Recently he phoned me that he'd like to make a web site to sell her chocolate cookies, to spread the world how good the cookies are..... We'll support u paps.....

My dad and his hair
...never touched barber shop, his hair always maintains by my mom. Specialty, he, sat on our backyard with that green plastic chair, old newspaper on the floor, and my mom wore that handgloves, and steel scissor and she started cutting and painting his hair..... "mbaak, masak air panas buat bapak.. "

My dad is the best advisor...
Year ago he told me the secret that he said only me knew about working social....
How he got the opportunity, how he achieved things..... how to get up... Well done carnegie!

My dad is a golfer
He goes everywhere to play his favourite sport. When our house got robbed eight years ago, and the thief also took his callaway golf clubs... He was so sad.... He got the replacement right away, but not the brand that he wanted.... One day...dad, i'll send you callaway......

My dad and his ring...
It was 5 months ago he told me that he wanted me to get his alumni class ring from Texas University if the time comes.. No dad, you're going to live forever and the ring shall goes with you.....

My dad and me
He always prays with me every time i had to go back to Bintan... He said " God, please take care of my daughter..... in place that isolated as it was, please give her company, please sending her the right person, and the success on her work...." My dad always wants me back to Jakarta.. but he knows that this is a way...

The experience had changed me, he knows it.

Love you forever......

you always be the reason why i always want to go home

i got confused....

Irr : "My friends told me lately that i may have problem with inconsistency... Nahh!! i just have hardly time to say no.... and just wanted to do things i comfortable with... but ended up by saying yes... then no...aw but yes..... hahaha that's ME .... accept it will you.... ? *wink* "

Merujuk ke kamus Miriam-Webster Online, kata ini berasal dari bahasa latin consistent-, consistens, yang merupakan present participle dari consistere. Kata ini berarti :

possessing firmness or coherence, free from variation or contradiction, showing steady conformity to character (buat konsistensi dalam hal karakter seseorang), tending to be arbitrarily close to the true value of the parameter estimated as the sample becomes large (dalam aplikasinya di bidang statistika)

Menurut kamus yang lebih populer misalkan Kamus oxford, consistent adalah kata sifat yang berarti:

always behaving in the same way, having the same opinion, standard, etc.

It takes patience....

"Making your mark on the world is hard. If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it's not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won't. It's whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere."

-Barack Obama-

Back to the Core

It's such a funny sensation to be
So happy that you wanna die
Promises always were crazy to me
But never was I so surprised

Minutes are longer when we are apart
Your presence's more than I can handle
It's come to the point where I wonder if I
Could ever be luckier when

Lend me your ears, I would like to confess
I'm doubting that you can be real...

irr : im thinking about toothless....

Dedicated to The Island

".....On an island in the sun, we'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine. I can't control my brain
When you're on a golden sea, you don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own as we drift into the zone"
(Island in the sun-Weezer)

My Friend Linda came !! (9-11 April 2009)
After a hectic businness trip to Singapore, she decided to to visit me here. She's the only visitor i have in years. For days i wonder where should i take her.... my first guest, remember? just want to show some cool, fun spot but had no clue yet.

Being picked up from the BBT Ferry Terminal and ate pastry and hot tea, we straigth ahead to my dorm... After pampered and chitchat we went to Nirwana Beach Club.... The plan was to show her the nicest beach.... but... the sand was awful, the rain washed the beauty of them... it supposed to be white crystal blue sandy beach.... Failed to give her good first impression.. sad me..

Spending the evening at Mana-mana Beach Club, we ordered double cheese pizza, nachos, pineapple juice for me and red wine for her. She was telling her plan to write a book....it's in the process already. It will be a story about someone who struggle her life in sickness. Her friend got a blood cancer since she was five. The story will be based on this girl who is the same age with me, who still survive, who still up and down in life, but still feel grateful to God. Cannot wait to read the book. And i really want to meet her in person.... i

After took some photoshot at Laluna...well she was an interior designer, so it's kinda important to take a picture of sail-like bench, white ornaments of the place, we went home, and watching Music and Me..... film that i've watched thousands time, and still cannot get enough of Hugh Grant...... I've been sleeping with the shadows overhead.......

Taking a nap...z z z zzz,

I had to go to Uban early in the morning, to have my first communion.

Right after i arrived at Lagoi, we directly go to the Ria Bintan to have our lunch. I ordered Beef tepanyaki and Linda ordered Oxtai Soup as i recommended....... talking about love live... girls talk.....

After a long hot sigthseeing the Golf Court (at this point, she was impressed, yee haw) we went to Bintan Lagoon to go swimming...... cooling the day.... Then, took 30 minutes car-ride we had dinner at Waiju at Uban, again she was impressed to the food. We ate gong gong, blackpepper crap, butter fried shrimp and kang kong......

we're so full like crazy...it's time to go home.

Woke up in the morning i made her a Tuna sandwich and Teh tarik...then she went back to Singapore...bye bye gals...see u around...in Jakarta.

10 April 2009

"...Biar ku tumbuh di batangMu, ya Pokok Anggur yang benar, supaya Kau hidupkan daku menjadi ranting yang segar. Jika Engkau beri berkat, aku berbuah yang lebat. Diriku milikMu abadi, Engkau tumbuhkan imanku. Yang dalam aku Kaumulai Kausempurnakan bagiMu. OlehMu kuncup merekah, hingga berbuah yang lebat".

Finally finished my kateksisasi study, never feel better. Finally i had completed my mom's wish this year. Above all, feel grateful for those who had been supporting me through 7 months. This song was sang by our group when the ceremony of our achievement been vowed and stated. Yes I sang.... the guitar played by Nathan, followed by Christian, Yessie, Nathan, Roy, Michael, Angel.

We received our first communion bread and wine, take a part in the church, be part of His body.I almost cried.... in the end, i feel that this process is important, i'm glad that i have to do it. No more doubt, i know what I choose, I know the path that I will take.... i know that some things must left behind, i understand for certain thing that has happened has brought me to this... I give my heart... totally....

ALLAH PEDULI

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